We are down to the last two. I would be a liar if I said these are not really kicking my ass. Usually walking into Day Care is a pleasure - the nurses are all smiling and I am pretty mentally prepared. But this time, I just didn't feel good. I felt heavy. Mom was … Continue reading Chemotherapy Number 11
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The Dark Cloud
My therapist walked me through the circles of mental well-being and stability. Cancer shakes you to your core. How long it takes for you to get to your core varies person to person. For me, it was the Monday before my 11th chemo. I spent the morning with my boyfriend, took my car to get … Continue reading The Dark Cloud
The Worst Symptom of All
When I initially got diagnosed with Hodgkins, I immediately when into research mode. Ok, interwebs...tell me everything I need to prepare for these next months. I combed through every symptom and possibility. I knew what a good PET scan looked like before I ever got one. I have some issues with being in control and … Continue reading The Worst Symptom of All
The Days After Chemo Treatment 10 – The Symptoms
The usual symptoms persist: Fatigue Gas Feeling flushed More fatigue The tight chest That being said, this time we have some new symptoms to add to the pile of fun: Hemorrhoids - yep, that's right. As if the the gas wasn't enough, let us throw in painful shits. Never in my entire life would I … Continue reading The Days After Chemo Treatment 10 – The Symptoms
The Days After Chemo Treatment 10
I had one goal this time...get to Valeria's party. My colleague and friend turned 50 this week. She has been planning and planning her big birthday bash. And Valeria is like me, she wants food, drinks, music, and dancing with a lot of people thrown in the mix. I wanted nothing more than to go … Continue reading The Days After Chemo Treatment 10
Chemotherapy Treatment Number Eight
It may have been postponed by a day, but my chemo Amazons at school rallied. Carla came to pick Mom and I up around 8:15. She couldn't stay the whole time because of classes, but the fact that she came and people were willing to cover her first class means the world to me and … Continue reading Chemotherapy Treatment Number Eight
The Days After Chemo
I woke up yesterday feeling...Great! Wait a minute. That can't be right. Let me check again. Day after chemo and I am feeling...really good! Huh? But everyone said the first is the worst. Everyone said I would be hanging over a toilet or unable to move from the couch or feeling like I was hit … Continue reading The Days After Chemo