When I initially got diagnosed with Hodgkins, I immediately when into research mode. Ok, interwebs...tell me everything I need to prepare for these next months. I combed through every symptom and possibility. I knew what a good PET scan looked like before I ever got one. I have some issues with being in control and … Continue reading The Worst Symptom of All
The usual symptoms persist: Fatigue Gas Feeling flushed More fatigue The tight chest That being said, this time we have some new symptoms to add to the pile of fun: Hemorrhoids - yep, that's right. As if the the gas wasn't enough, let us throw in painful shits. Never in my entire life would I … Continue reading The Days After Chemo Treatment 10 – The Symptoms
I had one goal this time...get to Valeria's party. My colleague and friend turned 50 this week. She has been planning and planning her big birthday bash. And Valeria is like me, she wants food, drinks, music, and dancing with a lot of people thrown in the mix. I wanted nothing more than to go … Continue reading The Days After Chemo Treatment 10
I can't believe that I am finished with my fourth round. Only one more round (two sessions) left. One month is nothing but feels like forever. When I visualize the road, it gets more narrow, like I am Alice looking through the looking glass. There is no way I can fit and yet, the chemo … Continue reading Chemotherapy Treatment Number Ten
Last weekend was my meltdown. Last weekend I was done with it all, ready to quit, ready to throw up the white flag and surrender. So, while I was crying my eyes out, Mom said, "Let's focus on something else. What do you have to look forward to next week?" Well, that next week was … Continue reading Mocking Cancer
I have been putting off writing this one because the days after chemo have been a rollercoaster of emotions and feelings. As I indicated about this chemo, my mind wasn't in the right place for the beginning of round number 5. I am just done. I am done feeling ill. I am done feeling tired. … Continue reading The Days After Chemo Number 9
Only four more. That's what I keep telling myself and what my people keep celebrating. To the outside world, four more sounds like nothing. But to me, the person going through it, four more is the worst. I am just done with this. And this treatment was probably the worst of the lot. Not because … Continue reading Chemotherapy Treatment Number 9
Having Mom here has been great for my tummy! Fresh and yummy dishes are served daily. And they are all anti-cancer dishes. But the soups have been the best...
Apparently alcohol and Neupogen are the exact same. When one too many accumulate in your system, you end up on the floor over a toilet or curled in a ball in pain. My white cells have been obstinate lately. I have been hitting below 1000 for several days and the doctor has been worried that … Continue reading One shot, Two Shots, Three Shots, Floor
Another year in Uruguay that I miss St. Paddy's Day! Last year I was burned and this year I have cancer. The universe is determined for me to not drink green Uruguayan beer. But, on the positive side, I have a fabulous wig!